to have but not to hold..

maybe you’re right. i’m too late to realise.

or maybe you’re wrong too. because i do know it earlier and i did cherish it much.

anyway, it’s even too late for us to realise.

it could be mend, but still, there’s a noticable wound there. clearly lied there. everyone who passes by might seen it.

it still broken. scattered on the ground. who knows they were mine? nobody. not even you.

things changed, surprisingly, and unexpectedly. from worse condition to a better one.

i don’t know why. it doesn’t matter. i only matter if it continues in this way and bear fruits after all. again, nobody knows.

yet, year 2007 has almost come to the end. it must also be a complete`full-stop` in this fairy tale, or there’s still 2nd episode in progress?

let God decides. fair enough right?

*yet i need to proclaim that this is the best fairy tale i’ve ever had in my life. thank you for your kindness, and everything.

从前的记忆，我不再摸索。

曾经说过：就算放弃我，我也要你亲口说出来。

现在回想，何必呢？何必说出来呢？

你的行动已证明一切，不需要再狠狠的刺痛我。

或许和你的缘分，只是擦肩型的吧，

错过了，任谁也追不回…

错过了，就让它随风而去…

不要再扛了，这思念的重担，是时候放下了，

松开手，才是真正的拥有。

…再也不需要你来衬托我的生命。

不知若干年以后，你还会记得我吗？

那一个你最熟悉的陌生人。

TO : dear perfect stranger,

everytime when i look into your eyes,

i found my heart bleeding.

from the moment you declared the truth,

you took away everything of mine,

leaving me only with those memories.

sometimes, i found myself alone, lonely..

because you are gone.

nobody is going to share their hearts with me,

just simply because you are gone.

i want you back in my arms!

would it be possible?

yeah, in dreams.

so, good night. i’m going to seek for you in dreams tonight.

please don’t go too far away, i can’t approach you.

often we face something we dislike.

often we meet someone we dislike.

but why don’t that often we meet the one we love?

in fact you met him/her,

but why you’ve just let them go that easily?

once they’re in love,

they have no reason for loving their beloved one.

in sense they’re leaving,

they always have many different reasons for rejecting the one who loves you so bad.

i cared that much, once.

i was so proud of being part of your life, once.

"will our friendship discard after a certain time or after we’ve known each others well ?" , i remembered i asked this, once.

we are people who love to figure things out. puzzles on the floor, crossword stumpers in major newspapers, game boards–all give evidence that something in us wants to figure things out.

but there’re many circumstances in which we cannot figure out how many pieces there are in the puzzle. often we mull things over and over in out minds to make sure we haven’t missed a clue. if only we knew the answer why, our pain would diminish.

undeniably, i can’t take it anymore. i’m miserable. officially, i do not want to ask WHY, not because i’m not wanting to know, not because i’m afraid of facing you, it’s just simply because i do not want to display you in kind of atmosphere, i do not want to ruin it anymore. can you get me?

if given me a chance, i still want to befriend you. since the day the friendship started to grow, i never thought of giving it up, till now.

just let the time and distance between us decide all these craps. forgiveness and forget will do when the shut down mode for this memory refunctions someday. by the way, it might be shutting down forever and ever…

certain people make thoughtless remarks, don’t take them personally, just move on. and you’ll see rainbow after thunderstorm.

Ish..

“Friends Forever”?

“Everlasting Friendship”?

“Best Friends Ever”?

Are these statements reliable?

Seriously, I don’t know. I wish I could figure it out, but I failed.

Sometimes I wonder, will Friendship lasts FOREVER?

Who knows? Maybe yes. Forever is just too far away from us.

Hm, some people have said,

Friends are like brunches of tree.

Some breaks, some stay forever and even some fail to grow.

But why, why don’t we keep its growth?

Don’t ever try to break a friendship. It’s fragile.

At the same time, two hearts might be broken as well.

Just like our friendship.

Once we were so close and even shared everything to each others.

Times fly, distance and gap became wider.

New friends broke in,

Finally, friendship fades away.

But, do you realize that I’m still sustaining out friendship with much efforts?

I bet you won’t know.

"How long shall i mourn for it?" , i asked myself.

"Not anymore." , my inner spirits(instinct) answered. =)

Everything happens for a reason, our friendship doesn’t exclude too.

Let it be. Do bear in mind, it’s not letting go, it’s sort of an appreciation to be kept in heart.

"Be good. Be safe. Do take good care of yourself."

No worries, i won’t let the past trip up my present.

No worries, i won’t drag myself with frustration anymore.

And Friendship Forever.

有些人说,当你舍不得放弃这世界的一个人或物时,就代表你还未完全成长,还未完全的看透这个时代的黑暗..

是的,总可以用"稚气未脱"来形容我吧..

有时候,我宁愿保留小孩子的天真,把这世界的事物都看成彩虹,把这世界上的人都当成天使..那该有多好!总好比看透人恶毒的心肠,看到世纪种种惊心的犯罪案件,人们为了少许的利益而将他人置于死地..

曾几何时,我是多么的在乎别人对我的看法,我不允许他人对我有意见..我啊,是多么的计较恶人在背后搞的小动作..

而那时的我,也是个非常注重友情的小子..回想当年,我总是觉得朋友是我唯一的依靠,朋友是我最信任的人..(现在的我,较注重亲情)

朋友,是的..很要好的时候,谁也会不顾一切的付出..然而,当友情出现裂痕,需要两方面互补时,难免会有"意外"..啊,那时,你才恍然大悟,友情其实是很脆弱的..是经不起考验的..是多么的自私..

当你一鼓作气,准备放手..还"友情"一个自由时,脑海中闪过的回忆,就会像强大无比的磁场,紧紧的把你吸进记忆深渊..最终,你还是舍不得放弃这一段用尽心血去维护,维持的友情..

就像现在的我..这段记忆深刻的友谊始终被他人"抛弃"..如今,只剩下不完整的幸福在唠叨..